What it means to be a Woman
Since my SRS, in December 2005, I have often thought about my feelings of being a woman. When I came round from my surgery, I had a deep feeling of elation and serenity, my life long dream and need had been realised.
Now more than eleven years later that feeling has not changed. It has mellowed, but I do not think that it will ever go completely.
There is a feeling of wonderment almost disbelief that it actually happened. I cannot think of words that really fully describe it.
If I wake up during the night and lay there on my back relaxing, not really thinking about anything in particular, I see my breasts and how flat my pubic area is. My hands will often wander to my female genitalia and that feeling of elation, completely overwhelms me. Is this a dream and will I eventually wake up from it?
So what do I feel? I have the same needs and desires like any other woman. I like to look good and feel good. I like to be admired by men. There is no feeling like being held in a strong mans arms, caressed and made love to. I like being chatted up and do occasionally flirt with men.
I love having doors opened and held for me; I love being treated; I enjoy cooking for and doing my mans washing (occasionally); I loved having my hand held to steady me getting on and off our cabin cruiser (though I am very capable). We have now sold it and have a lovely, luxurious caravan.
I am a woman and make the most of my assets. I dress to attract and flaunt my ample 38F breasts. Being small I also have a good cleavage. I also dress to please myself and like to look good; and if I look good, I feel good.
Males over the years have used the expression 'like a girl' in an insulting manner. An insult? If only they knew. It is wonderful being a woman and whenever it was used against me; it made me feel warm and proud inside. Mentally I have always been a girl.
Just embrace your gender and sexuality and enjoy it. It is a privelege to be a woman.
I am happy being me, I love my man of twelve+ years and I know that he loves and cares for me.
I am proud to be a woman.
