I turned up on tuesday for my jobsearch session and I seem to take it in my stride now. It is probably due to the fact that I have been depressed for years. I don't see doctors or take any medication I just soldier on in the hope that one day I will feel better. As I feel as if my chin is on the floor the work programme doesn't have any effect on me. People seem to think that living on jobseekers allowance is great but in fact the repetitive nature of living on such a small amount and unable to do anything other than survive at the basic level with no real chance of obtaining a better life is a very depressing feeling. You end up doing silly things that make your life worse as if we are in a kind of victim mentality and just waiting to reach the level where the only way is up. Dragging yourself up from the floor when you have no real chance of a better life is very difficult and many turn to ways of taking their mind off the problems they have even if it is only for a short time. Some people might turn to alcohol, gambling or other vices just to avoid those awful empty feelings that churn your stomach and make you want to give up. I don't want to depress anyone but I could do with some good news but sadly I don't expect to get any. The jobsearch session was casual and not many new jobs were found. From my experience of the work programme most of the people that started when I did are still unemployed but some have gained work.