Depression
No-one can really describe depression. You can say it's feeling sad or low, but you can't describe the exact feeling to anyone. I guess a good way of describing it is by saying your in a black tunnel and there's no light, the tunnel keeps going and going and you can't get out. Some people might take that litterally though and can't understand it.
I was depressed when I was 17 years old and I thought it had went away, then I became depressed again a few years ago when my chronic pain started. Now I have started thinking that maybe it never went away, maybe it was hidden by my fake smiles. Maybe I've been depressed for the last 8 years and I've only been able to notice it when things have gotten bad in my life. How can you really tell if you are depressed? I know what it's like and I know what it feels like, but is it possible to be serverly depressed and not see it for yourself? Could you friends and family miss it too or do they see it and are too scared to tell you?
How can I tell if I am depressed or if I'm just really sad and taking things too personally?
I want to talk about my 'depression' this time around firstly because it is fresh in my head whereas for me to go back 8 years to see exactly how I felt I would need to read my diaries from then. That sounds very scarey to me right now because I now how deep those diaries are, it scares me to read just how sad I was.
