My Cervical Cancer Story

On Friday 24th April 2009 I was sitting in my house waiting on my friend Katrina to come over as we were going out that evening and she was coming over to get ready in my house before we went out.  I got a phone call from a withheld number and I never answer them so ignored it.  I had a voice mail asking me to phone the hospital.  I was shocked, I had no idea why the hospital phoned me so I phoned my friend Sarah and asked if she could phone the number and pretend to be me because I was scared.  I told her to ask why they phoned.  I was so nervous waiting for Sarah to call me back, my heart was pounding and I couldn't sit still.  After 10 minutes I phoned Sarah and she was upset.  She said she had called the hospital and pretended to be me, they said I was to come in first thing on Monday morning for an MRI Scan.  She said Why and they wouldn't tell her, but she said, I can't go a full weekend not knowing what is happening.  So they told her, you have Cervical Cancer and its important you come in for this scan on Monday so we can see how big the tumour is.  When Sarah told me I shouted NO and she said YEAH and I said NO its not and she said yeah it is.  The two of us were screaming and crying down the phone.  Sarah was actually at her work and had to go outside for some fresh air because she was so upset.  I phoned my Mum and I was screaming down the phone, 'Mum I'm going to die! I'm going to die! Help!'  She said, ' What are you talking about?' and I told her, 'I'm going to die.  I've got cancer'

The only way I can explain what I felt is complete shock and kind of like an outter body experience as if I was looking down on myself.  I don't think I'll ever be able to explain that feeling.